the quest for approval

When you are deluded and full of doubt, even a thousand books of scripture are not enough. Fen-Yang

hmmm. yep this is true. what is the polar oposite of delusion and doubt? i suppose it's that inner knowing that you're ok. when that is not so, nothing else can convince you that you're ok.

how does this apply to me? and when and how do i arrive at being ok? only when i arrive at honest acceptance of who i am and what i'm doing. no one else can convince me otherwise when i don't like myself. what do i approve of? what makes me content? what was that little thought for the day a few weeks ago?

Until you make peace with who you are, you'll never be content with what you have. Doris Mortman
this is very important insight into myself. contentment with what i have would sure enough save me alot of money!! how do i make peace with who i am??

i will not find approval if i don't approve of myself. i'm my own greatest critic. can i critique myself in ways that build my confidence? be happy with baby steps and not loose sight of my sense of humor when i fall short of the mark? one thing is for sure, i will fall short. perhaps that's why i become deluded and full of doubt.

Maybe being oneself is always an acquired taste. (Patricia Hampl)
yep, and i think it takes a bit to figure out the recipe!